When I was in primary 6, I started getting really bad acne. I was concerned at first but almost everyone I knew said they would go away eventually. I tried some products but none of them did much. Then as years slowly passed by, I started getting scars. People would ask me stupid questions and fucking stare at me, it's just so fucking annoying.
It has been a curse that sometimes I feel like I cannot go on in society because I am constantly being judged and looked at.
I don't go out anymore as that often because my face looks deformed from acne scars. I envy everyone with normal skin which in my perspective is everyone I see on the street. The day I entered into Polytechnic, I feared that I would be pressurized, to know that all the guys around me are almost good looking than me, and I am just a laughing stock to everyone around me. Many times, I just want to drop out of school because I got tired of getting looked at everyday from everyone and from the people in class almost at times, giving long cold stares at my acne and acne scars.
I hate it when people keep telling me to wash my face, or "Kah Sheng, why is your face like that?" It's just like adding salt to the fucking wound. Sometimes, a person has already gone through so many fucking battles and struggles in life, and yet in addition onto the burden, comes the huge constant worry of people judging you because of the acne and acne scars on a person's face, and having to deal with confidence and acne.
I feel like a vampire. I shy away from mirrors and I try to only look at my hair when I'm styling it. Insecurity was part of me. I think that if I had more self-esteem about the way I looked, I think I would have been more outgoing. I probably would have been more outspoken in class and would not have felt so insecure about going up and speaking in front of a group of classmates. I felt so humiliated. It is really humiliating to feel like I have no control over my acne. I hold my head down, and I am ashamed to look at people; I feel so embarrassed. I am 20 years old and to be acting this way is very frustrating.
I hate that the first thing people see is my bad skin. It's associated with being dirty and I hate that, because it's not at all like that. I just hate that the first thing people see when they look at me is bad skin. I really, really hate that. Not a day goes by that I don't think about it. I feel like I don't look right no matter how hard I try to dress up and look nice. There is always that area of pimples that and it's very unsettling. There really hasn't been a day gone by that I don't think about it, or look at my face.
ACNE just totally ruined my damn life. I used to be the one that can hang out with people and wanted to be around with them. Now with this bullshit acne and scars left behind, I'm just a fucking normal piece of shit. I totally look like crap walking around school, trying to avoid people I see or used to hang out so they don't see my imperfections and how bad it has been.
I feel like a vampire. I shy away from mirrors and I try to only look at my hair when I'm styling it. Insecurity was part of me. I think that if I had more self-esteem about the way I looked, I think I would have been more outgoing. I probably would have been more outspoken in class and would not have felt so insecure about going up and speaking in front of a group of classmates. I felt so humiliated. It is really humiliating to feel like I have no control over my acne. I hold my head down, and I am ashamed to look at people; I feel so embarrassed. I am 20 years old and to be acting this way is very frustrating.
I hate that the first thing people see is my bad skin. It's associated with being dirty and I hate that, because it's not at all like that. I just hate that the first thing people see when they look at me is bad skin. I really, really hate that. Not a day goes by that I don't think about it. I feel like I don't look right no matter how hard I try to dress up and look nice. There is always that area of pimples that and it's very unsettling. There really hasn't been a day gone by that I don't think about it, or look at my face.
ACNE just totally ruined my damn life. I used to be the one that can hang out with people and wanted to be around with them. Now with this bullshit acne and scars left behind, I'm just a fucking normal piece of shit. I totally look like crap walking around school, trying to avoid people I see or used to hang out so they don't see my imperfections and how bad it has been.
The worse thing is that I have to do projects everyday, having to meet up outside almost every fucking time, I'm going to look like a fucking piece of shit with acne and scars. Fucked up life, Fucked up world, everything is just totally fucked up. I almost started fucking crying just by looking in the mirror. I don't even give a shit about whether you calling me a crybaby. Just put yourself in my shoes if you have all those fucking acne and scars, having to meet up people almost everyday, with them looking at your fucked up face. It just demoralizes your confidence and just wanting to die on that spot.
In one of my recent's post, I posted that something would probably best describe the way that I am feeling right now.
I hate myself so much, of all the emotions that I am going through and also because of my appearances. I am short, ugly, and have bad skin. Every day I look in the mirror with disappointment. There's not one day that I don't stare in a mirror and want to just hide in my room and never be seen. My insecurities have held me back from so much in life that I am always ashamed of how I look.
I hate it when people start focusing on my fucking imperfections because I get that enough in my everyday life. I have spent so much money on products for my face, visited multiple dermatologists and have done almost anything I can do because having clear skin was something I desired more than anything. I was and still am so sick of going out in public and having people stare at my skin, instead of my eyes, when talking to them. I know people are going to tell me that I shouldn't let my acne/pimples bother me, but it's hard in a world where people point out every single flaw of yours. The only thing I can really do is eat better, cleanse daily and hope for the best.
The thing is people always think I am vain, but I am always this person trying to keep long hair to hide my pimples and scars on my face. I have nothing to be proud of in my life and I never will. I want to just die, it would be preferable to live my whole life hating myself and wishing for death and pretending to be optimistic to get by. I am overwhelmed with rage and grief whenever I see my reflection because I can't stand who I am. I cannot emphasize enough how much I fucking hate myself.
I cannot expressed enough on how much I hate myself, the way that I actually look.
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Why is it so hard to live right now. It's like everything's against me! First I had my mother died, yet I am expected to like praise God everyday with this heavy heart of mine. Secondly, I have acne and scars since primary 5 until now. It's so fucking annoying and just by looking at other peoples' face feels like adding some fucking salt to the wound. Thirdly, my relationship with my father seems to be further apart. I love him but I don't know how to reach out to him and yet I am expected to share gospel to him when I don't even know how to break the news to him about my mom's eternity. Fourthly, my dad and I are too fucking poor and yet I have to fucking constantly to pay so much things everyday. I really want to see dermatologist to have my fucking face fix but I don't have that fucking money and now everyday I have to face people with my fucked up face and it is just fucking tearing me up inside. I wonder what it's like to be handsome, to able to feel confident and lift my head high, able to walk on the streets, and not fearing of what people might think of my face.
I started crying at these kind of thoughts. I've had acne for around 8 years now. People without it have no idea how much it damages your confidence. People that say "Oh hey, you have acne! Hahaha wash your face more, and eww, it looks disgusting and gross." It actually kills me to hear this. people do not understand that it hurts because you can't get it away. It's awful just to look at how many people who have nice skin and then me looking in the mirror and seeing my skin is awful, is like a million stabs in my heart.
I am so sick of crying. I have been crying so many times and just wanting to die and shit. I just can't keep my focus on God. Fuck, it's so hard and yet people don't have to live the fuck I am in. It's fucking hard you understand!? I can't fucking take it anymore. I am fucking tired. I can't fucking express how much I am about to fucking cry.
I started crying at these kind of thoughts. I've had acne for around 8 years now. People without it have no idea how much it damages your confidence. People that say "Oh hey, you have acne! Hahaha wash your face more, and eww, it looks disgusting and gross." It actually kills me to hear this. people do not understand that it hurts because you can't get it away. It's awful just to look at how many people who have nice skin and then me looking in the mirror and seeing my skin is awful, is like a million stabs in my heart.
I am so sick of crying. I have been crying so many times and just wanting to die and shit. I just can't keep my focus on God. Fuck, it's so hard and yet people don't have to live the fuck I am in. It's fucking hard you understand!? I can't fucking take it anymore. I am fucking tired. I can't fucking express how much I am about to fucking cry.
I foresee myself becoming so tired of my life in a few years from now, I don't think I will last so long. It's infuriating to know that people judge you so automatically because of your skin; and it's not even my fault that I wanted pimples/acne or even acne scars. I just want to have "normal" skin. It's so difficult to fucking live everyday. I've been almost crying the fuck out of my heart wanting to have fucking normal face. WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE FUCKING AGAINST ME!!!!!
I know that fellings... It just too damn hard to live with it. And the worst thing is that u can't quit it for the sake of ur own fukin life. And hell ya,,, i think it causes more sufferings than aids,cancer and other deseases... We don't have anything to do with our skin but to look in the mirror and watch it getting bad to worse day by day. And the time that we fuckin struggle with our damn skin, cry like a mad, pray to god, hide ourselves at the corner of our fuckin dark room.. We lose a lot of our life..those precious moments,,those smiles...the time when we wanted to live our life happily,,go out with friends,,live in our own paradise.. And if someone so strong to take all these and live the life so long,, i know that these memories will kill him at the dead line of his life and make him wish for ending up all these shits when he first thought of suicide for this crap..
ReplyDeleteHey Hidden_shaddow, thanks for being so understanding. Life is so cruel and unfair.
DeleteI definitely, as odd as it sounds, agree about it causing more suffering then many more life threatening diseases. I would rather be deathly ill then spend a long healthy life with terrible skin. I dont care if im seen as vain, I hate having such bad skin and knowing all i can do is wait patiently while it takes its course and if that wasnt bad enough knowing every break out is giving me permanent scars that i will have for the rest of my fucking life. days you wish you could just scrub off your skin but know it will only get worse, its just so irritating beyond beleif.
DeleteBro, got yours solution just goto a dermatologist and ask him to use dermal fillers basically it is an injection with substance that will lift the scar up it will last for 6 months or 1 year, there are also permanent filers such as silicone but they say there are chances of cancer
DeleteThe best bet is to do the temporary fillers which lasts 6 months to 1 year and then redo....Hope all the best and to god is our final return....
YOU ARE A FAGGOT. you are ugly. you have no scars no pimples that i can consider as many. PEOPLE ARE FUCKING WITH YOU BECAUSE YOUR GENES ARE SHIT. not because you have scars or pimples... you are not a snowflake, you look UGLY. you are not handsome. ACCEPT İT. you are NOT BEAUTİFULL AND NEVER GONNA BE. ACCEPT İT. FAGGOT. and move on, you have no acne.
DeleteC mon men you have not pimples at all, i have more than you, and mines are worst because im a white skin people, so my pimples get red and turn to a purpule color... i think you are overrating your problem.. just be more strong you are not the only one with acne.. and obviusly there are so many people with more acne than you
DeleteBro r u fine please replay me if u can I want to talk about it ,there a way to treat.
DeleteYou are not ugly at all! You are a handsome young man. And I have felt the same way as you before and can relate. Now a days you just have to worry about surviving and becoming the best person you can become. Other people will remain ignorant morons because they just don't have a clue. I'm on your page cause today a lady at the bank asked me what was wrong with my face, as if I had a disease or something. I have been struggling with acne since I was 11 and now I'm 33 with scars. I want to show you my picture.
ReplyDeleteHey thanks for your comment. I'm still feeling really insecure about how I look and I really feel like crap when girls keep telling about how other guys are handsome and I really don't know how to respond. Some people just don't have a clue how much it hurts to have acne and scars.
DeleteKah Sheng, cool name. I feel your pain. I have the same damned issue and whats even worse is that every time my bf and i hang out, he cannot cannot cannot keep his hands to himself and hunt my face for some dead skin to pick on. I tell him not to touch my face but he does it anyway being to overly concentrated on his mission to remove the dead skin on my face. It is very self esteem lowering and damn right depressing. It does hurt so much. My confidence is scarred everytime, and he never learns. Why does my appearance always have to be a big deal? I often talk to him and catch him staring at one part of my face, pretending to be listening, not knowing that where his eyes are targeted at is obvious to the person. I cant imagine how he cant feel what i do. I hate my face being made a big deal just because he wants to pull a fucking dead piece of skin. People wouldnt have noticed my face if he doesnt do it. Just to let u knw, we have the same face. There are other people whose face is worse than ours. Lets not make it ruin our lives forever. People who love us accept us regardless of our imperfections. For now lets just keep thinking we r not alone. This battle is harder than those jerks think.
DeleteI totally feel all the above but the worst is when I've fought with my partners (over the years) they have retaliated by mentioning how repulsive and nasty I am with my scars. Even have been called 'Scarface' by one, and the thing is prior to any of that happening - I had accepted my appearance and worked actively enough to restore my confidence, which of course, was dismantled again.
DeleteYou're right, people don't have a clue. They just think that you can just rub proactive on your face and 'problem solved' and it doesn't work that way. As for those girls that keep yapping about other guys, you don't need to respond, you don't need to say anything because they are giving you an opinion. If what those girls say get on your nerves just change the subject on them or tell them that you have a call you need to take on the other line, lol.
ReplyDeletei have scarring too bad scarring since i was 18. Im now 32. im not going to lie to you and pretend life has been easy. It hasn't and life will never be the same as it was in my pre- scarring days but to be honest you only have 1 life and 1 lifetime to live so cheer up and try and be happy. Life isn't all that bad. People do stare and others don't but thats their problem not yours. If they feel the need to stare and say bad things to you thats more of a reflection of how they just don't understand or are mean spirited not a reflection on your character or how you look.
ReplyDeleteRemember when you think things are bad there are lots of people out there with even worse problems like missing limbs and disabilities of all kinds. These people are an inspiration to me because even though they have these problems they still approach life with zest and a will to carry on.
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ReplyDeletei 100% understand how you feel.. i too have moderately deep boxcar scars across my mid cheeks on the face and under lights it looks like a deep wide long knife slash acrossed my face. ive been deaing this for like 7 years now. Im now 25 and because of this i couldnt focus on anything because whenever im awake im so self concious about it and this thought just driving me crazy and i just kinda isolate myself at home staying on pc. People just dont fucking understand either your closes around you, parents dont understand. They just keep trying to compare people with 'worse' situation than me but that doesnt make me feel any better. I feel for those who are worse than me but that doesnt mean my problems is not there. No one understand you, they just tell you to get over it its not that bad and all bullshit talk. Im sick of hearing those. I just want to sleep at night and never wake up again. I have practically no friends, crap job, diploma and assosciate degree, dropped out of uni. I fucking hate my life. I cant even look at people in the eyes when i talk. I have tried to just ignore it a couple of times but whenever i see myself in the mirror i just get so fucking angry. Through my entire life i have 2 close accidents, and i just think why didnt i just fucking die there. Is like God have some plan for me but i see nothing. I dont even know what God wants from me. I tried so many 'products' that claim to help reduce scar appearance and nothing has worked. I see serveral dermatologists. The worse thing is on top of the scars I have another skin condition diagnosed Acne Rosacea and/or Sebehorreic Dermatitis. I recently went to do Fractional Laser to help reduce the scar. Ive done 2 sessions and the scars still just look just as bad and thousands of dollars just gone like that. Before, i pray everyday just to have 'normal' skin but everyday the hope became hopeless i just dont know what to do. Now, i just try to save up some money to go see dermatologist and laser or scar revision in hope to reduce the scar appearance. This is the only thing that keeps me wanting to 'live'. If all fail i seriously dont know what to do. I rather just end my life.
ReplyDeleteHey buddy !
Deletei'm on the same boat. Nothing fucking annoying like acne scar. I cry everyday because of this shit T_T..I did research on scar treatment and learn that dermapen and dermaroller can work well on scar. You should consult with your dermatologist of these treatments or you should search for any dermatologists who practice this procedure. After I can get rid of my deeply underneath acne , I would seek for dermapen practice because it seem to work very well on most type of scar. Hope it helps you ! Don't give up !
what are you talking about? your skin looks great in that picture.
ReplyDeleteI really hate it when people stare at me because of my acne, IT HURTS!!! Then they start to give you the wisest advices about acne when they don't even have acne..SHUT THE FUCK UP I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR FUCKED UP ADVICES THAT EVERYBODY KNOWS!!!! If it was that easy to get rid of these little fucking bumps then no one would have acne . I just wish that people who have never suffered from acne to shut the fuck up and not talk about it. at all. unless they're a doctor.
ReplyDeletehey. I understand how you feel. I have suffered for a severe acne for 4 years and it has left very bad scars on my face. The problem is i am a girl. I used to be a pretty good looking girl but acne stroke me out of no where at the age 18. I have tried many things and gone to dermatologists a lot but nothing works for me. I'm getting bored with everything in my life. I feel pathetic and not-being-my-self anymore. It changes the way i see the world. I don't know what to do but praying every day. I also pray for your acne will disappear soon. I believe that scar can be treated and we must be patient. Every time i'm depressed with acne, I tend to search for video of acne sufferer successful story to boost my spirit. Just don't give up !
ReplyDeleteGod i can't believe it, i never thought that someone could describe my feelings this precisely. Man i feel your pain cause i'm suffering from acne too, it's been three years now and i don't know what to do about it. what hurts the most is that i totally lost myself i can't be myself anymore and i can't even remember who I'm, so isolated so sad so down so broken just miserable. I don't know what happened to me i can't smile or eat or live anymore I'm loosing my mind, i never thought that acne could damage someone soul like that. my family are blaming me for my attitude they say that i'm better than that and in life there are much worse things than acne and acne doesn't really worth this huge amount of sadness you are exaggerating come on stop being childish. God, they don't understand and i can't make them understand it's not even about people judging you its about u not judging yourself when u stare at your reflection in the mirror this is the worst part, i'm pretty girl but i feel with this bad skin no way to look pretty, this acne is not only psychologically painful but also physically it's so painful to wash your face daily ah so awful. I wish i really wish when i go to sleep at night that this is just a nightmare and it will go away but no it's reality that i have to face.. i wish i could be much stronger person who can ignore this acne and live this life. i wish i can hang out laugh be happy and not let this thing bring me down no matter what but i can't i can't. But, i must try i have to try i feel bad for hurting myself this bad through wasting my time my tears my emotions my thoughts and my life, i should save all this for something bigger much much bigger. I also feel bad for not spending time with my family i hope they will forgive me for not being myself. I love God and i believe that he loves me too and he will always choose whats best for me even if i disagree. i trust him and you should trust him too maybe we will have a better life in the other side of the world. Hold On
ReplyDeleteHi, I know exactly how you feel. The thing is that you don't have to get pretty face to gain self esteem . It's all in your head, the way how you look at the world and all the problems around you. You feel bad not because you have ugly face but because you care about what other people think about you. The only thing you can do in this situation is to improve your self esteem to that level that your don't give a fuck what others do, or think. It is very hard but it can be achived. My best advice is to start with tandem skydive jump ;) , after that you will look at the world with different eyes . And don't forget there are many people in much worse situation than you, search YouTube for Nick Vujcic !
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I really hate myself because of my face. I've been struggling with acne since I was 15. I lost my self confidence. I don't want to go outside and attend events, even talking to people. People stares at me like it's a mortal sin to be ugly. A lot of people been telling me how to treat my acne well in fact they don't have a single zit. That's very annoying they seem to know everything about dealing with acne. I have this i don't know friend or something that complains about a single zit on her face. She was like killing herself because of that single zit. They really don't know how we deal with such curse. Acne scars make my face a lot worst. I've tried everything that could possibly make the scars disappear but none of them works. Such a waste of time and money. Your skin is still better than mine.
ReplyDeleteIt seriously doesn't matter. Life is out there to be had. The secret to being happy is just to stop caring so much! Stop looking in the mirror, it will only increase your obsession. Just go out into the world and you'll see that you can have fun. The more you go out, don't hide, and end up having fun, the less you'll care about this crap. I'm in a similar boat, but have much worse scarring, and I (with the help of exposure therapy) have achieved a "who fucking cares?" attitude that can seriously work! It's very relieving to know this is possible. Just STOP staring at yourself in the mirror. Look at yourself in the eyes when you do look in the mirror, purposely put yourself in situations where your face is visible, and watch and see that life is fine! The most important thing people notice is confidence and happiness. If adopt an "I ain't letting this get me down" people will similarly not give a shit about whether you have scars or not.
ReplyDeleteThe answer isn't in scar treatments, the answer is in your mind. You have every right to be happy, and it is FULLY attainable. I have setbacks every now and then, but just knowing I CAN be fully happy is the evidence I use to get back on track and get out of the bathroom mirror and back into society w/ confidence in my personality. People really DO NOT care as much as you think they do. Acting weird and embarrassed is far worse in a social setting than what you look like. Just own it, go out, be confident, and ENJOY life. :)
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I can emphasize with your feelings and thoughts. Acne is a chronic disease and there is no complete resolution to this disease. I am have been suffering for acne for 15++ years. I continue to have oral medication to control my acne despite the fact that I am 29 years old this year. Acne have left untreatable scars on my face. Atrophic scars can be reduced by laser resurfacing but hypertropic scars are almost untreatable. I have many hypertropic/bumpy scars on my chin. I have undergone several laser treatments for my chin, but none of them works. Sometimes, I think we have to accept and live with these acne scars. It's really hard to do it, but it is worth giving a try. Despite saying this, I do continue to cry sometimes when I see my scars but when I thought about what a supportive family I have, it does help me feel less depressed. I believe that your father loves you and thinks that you look handsome as you are his son. Isn't that enough? Live confidently and happily for your father and make him proud.
ReplyDeleteKeep moving my friend. One thing, your face doesnt look very bad at all to me, but I know its all about personal perception and Im sure you have been told that plenty of times. Please dont isolate yourself because reintegrating can be very difficult. I began to break out in early adolescence and it was seriously bad. My parents treated it a one of those rites of passage things that would just go away, so they just did little things to help like taking me to our worthless general practitioner when I really needed serious dermatology intervention. I can say that the acne subsided and I began to gain some confidence back. My first job out of high school was in a television newsroom as a video editor and I couldn't hang. My attitude had changed years earlier from outgoing and caring to fuck anyone who has a problem with it. I was working with all these alabaster skinned bastards and was a nervous wreck. I was prescribed benzodiazepines that I am now physiologically addicted to (15 years later). I had been drinking to cope and developed alcoholism as a result. That took a major toll as I lost jobs to missed days, began getting arrested, totaling cars, you name it. I went through treatment and sobered up but by that time my employment prospects were grim and after the economy crashed(US) I was stuck working shit jobs when I was working as an AV specialist for a very successful corporation
ReplyDeleteamong other high end jobs in my field. I began to obsess over my face thinking it to be why I didnt feel truly free, why I didn't pursue opportunities and enjoy life in general (most of my friends had moved to california, London, Japan, etc. So what do I do? I start examining my face and messing with it creating some hypertrophic scarring as a result that fucks with me to this day. My advice is never turn to intoxicants or drugs to ease the pain, it will come back 10000 fold and be as strong as you can. People will respect you immensely for persevering with scars. Think of your scars like zebra stripes, some may think they look out of place, but they will soon learn that they mean back the fuck up. Your face isnt very bad man, keep moving forward and know you arent the only one with this dilemma. Best.
Dear Kindred Soul,
ReplyDeleteLike you I am in my early 20s and recently cleared up my acne only to find scars on my cheeks and forehead that I have become incredibly self concious about. I came to a point of OBSESSION--looking at my face in the mirror all the time, researching on-line different methods and procedures to get rid of them, buying hundreds of dollars worth of "scar removal" products.
Then, about a month ago, I broke down. I had been slipping into a deep depression--hating myself, not seeing myself as worthy or valuable, and definitely not beautiful. This led up to me being home on a Friday night, because I wanted to be alone and did not want to see any friends, laying in bed and crying. I cried and screamed and slapped my own face. I lost it. I was just so angry. Angry at myself, angry at my parents, angry at the world.
Then I stopped. I stopped crying. I stopped questioning. I stopped hurting myself. I realized that by me focusing on my acne scars--this one negative thing that I perceive about myself--I am swallowing up all the positive things about myself. Like my sense of humor (which wasn't very active at the time because I was depressed). Or my intelligence--I had a really mentally demanding job that I love and was excelling at! Or my friends and family--I have an amazing family that I had been fighting with and freaking out at for no reason, but because I was unhappy. And you know what else? I realized I liked ME. I liked my face, my body, my hair. I truly did like all of these things, and I am focused on one area, a NEGATIVE area. No wonder the scars were looking worse everyday--you get what you think about and focus on! Well after that moment of pure clarity--I made a promise to myself that any time my mind would start to think about my acne scars I would immediately think about something else, like my smile or my laugh or my friends or a country I want to visit. Just anything that made me feel good. And I started to feel amazing! Not only did I feel amazing, but (and here is the kicker) I was getting compliments on how good my skin looked! My acne scars are fading! Just like that! You know I have read hundreds of different philosophies and thinking methodologies that support the idea of changing your physical self with the power of your mind. But I am hear to tell you, my friend, it works! And I am also here to tell you, IT WILL WORK FOR YOU.
All I ask is for you to give it a try. And no half assing it. Give it a true mental try. Then write back in a month or two and let me know how amazing you feel.
Truly yours,
Kindred Soul
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ReplyDeletebut I personally think you are kinda handsome. I obviously can't fix everything, or anything... haha. but honestly, maybe it is the lighting or something? your skin looks fine!!
remember, there is always men's makeup too! if you still feel like this, it might help your self confidence a bit!-it certainly helps girls!
another piece of advice--try and find a girl with lots of acne on her face and try to just talk to her and stuff and be REALLY nice to her and tell her she's pretty! you could even tell a guy who has acne too that he looks really handsome. because you know what? they are probably feeling slightly like you, so just make them feel better. im serious.
I started getting acne when I was around six or seven years old. I'm twenty-four now, and my cheeks are covered in thick, deep scars.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I would be happy if my face looked as good as yours.
Why is it that those who suffer the least bitch the most?
You look great. Acne is something normal. I have a scar in my mouth and yes it's true that it's very shitty feeling but life is too short to be depressed the only one that feels all that pain is you and only you. Try to be positive try maybe Roaccutane, and do a lot of sport too.
ReplyDeleteYou might want to research dermaroller microneedling treatments. I have seen alot of amazing things on youtube regarding acne scarring and microneedling. Also look up www.banishacnescars.com.
ReplyDeleteI havetha same problem as you im 33 no girlfriend no kids living with my mother I have the lowest self steem depression compare to my scars your face is perfect
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ReplyDeleteHi Kah Sheng! You know what I am exactly like you. It's a million times harder for my because I am a girl. The society puts more pressure for girls to have extremely flawless skin, and with me it's just impossible. It's no surprise that I haven't had a boyfriend and I'm already 25. I've been battling acne since i was 12 until now. I have tried it all but they just would not leave me alone. And the saddest part is that, I know the acne will eventually go away but not these scars. It's a miserable place to be in. I am spent.
ReplyDeletehello I am 62 years old and have had acne from 15 yrs old to 32 yrs. old...I am a woman who never married, never had children and when I had found the love of my life, who thought I was beautiful....he suddenly passed away from a heart attack. My scars are on the inside and outside. I have lived a lifetime of being bullied, stared at, laughed at, and called names...children stare at me and whisper to their mothers, who look at me and take the child away. I stay at home and only go to the store. My family what's left of them say I'm being silly or imagining it...They have clear faces.When I die, I wish my headstone could read " I never have to hear UGLY again". I have learned to just live for myself and that is all I can say...
ReplyDeleteI am 55 years old. Male. I am English and live in a provincial city in England. Same experience as you. Acne, scars and now Rosacea. I wish I could sit with you. We could put our arms around each other and give each other a big compassionate hug. I wish you well. Like you, just living for myselg. family don't give a shit. Don't care. I am just waiting for death now.
Deletehello provincial man.....I am sending you my half of our hug across the pond. thank you for the reply. It was nice to see. Cheers.
Deletehello provincial man...I am sending you my half of a large hug over the big pond.Thank you for the reply, it was nice to see. We need to look at our lives not as "worthless" but somehow, redeeming? I don't know because some days are good but most are bad...Maybe we should write novels or such, with our experiences of life....then we would be rich and not give a care who says we are ugly....it was a nice short dream, eh?
DeleteWell i dont really know if someone is reading this or not but anyways i would like to teell my story
ReplyDeleteI am 15 years old and im turning 16 in february after 2 months. i had acnes since i was 10 years old and im strugglling with them i also have spent a huge amount of money to treat my face but it didnt work but still...im struggling with them but inside ive given up i dont want to look at my face because i feel truly ugly i know right when i do speak everyone looks at my acnes not eyes and i feel sooooooooooo timid for that i really would like to die because of this shit i saw u pic ur skin is not that bad but my skin omg i cannot explain there is no even 1 mm of clean surface on my skin to make matter worse ive acnes on my chest, on my back eeven on my pussy im completely serious im not joking i hate myslf so fuckn muck i just wanna die i hate this unfair and cruel world my friends tell me that it really doesnt matter but they dont know how i feel inside bc they never had any acnes public stares at me like they see a monster im extremely scarlet skinned i always am red bc im so shy even parents and my sibings cant understand me mom doesnt care about my facee she always says that it will go away but when???? right now im crying to be perfectly honest i completely aggree with u bc u expressed eveerything i wanted i feel so sad but i dont show my sadness i hate myself and every single thing i this world i wish i was dead i dont want to continue living dammit
Dont worry your just 16, your hormones are kicking in at this stage of your life, when you reach 19 or 20 your hormones will start to settle down, but please please please dont start picking at pimples, it will cause more zits in return plus cause more scarring, to fight fucking acne you should be patient, patience is the only cure for acne, try to not look at your face in the mirror as much, it will just cause depression leading to acne once again, please listen to what i say, eat healthy for only few years to cure this fucking disease, ok now get yourself some antibiotic called doxycycline 100mg, it may have side effects but to only certain people not everyone, have it after meals if not you will puke your intestines out, its an antibiotic which causes to destroy excess bad bacteria which the white blood cells in the body cant afford to do, this in return will reduce inflamatory. Keep taking this until you see a difference, this is not like accutance, so you will see drastic changes in a week, dont take in excess but just once a day after a meal at night, now once the acne heals off, you will be left with scars, get a TCA chemical peel done from a proper dermatologist, you will have new skin like a baby, but cure your acne before doing this last part,
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ReplyDeleteHello Kah Sheng, I can identify with what you have said here. I am a middle-aged English guy who suffered a very severe acne in my teens and twenties. You look as though you have a few minor scars. From your photo it doesn't look that bad. I have what are called "rolling" and "boxcar" scars, mostly on the right side of my face so my face looks asymmetrical as it is more scarred on one side than the other. I have struggled with this all my life. I am now in my fifties and I am now suffering from a condition called Rosacea (since my early forties). So Rosacea plus acne scars. In my fifties! Accutane did shift the acne but it was too late to done anything about the scars. I have tried everything to treat the scars and been to so many derms and plastic surgs that I have lost count. I have had subcisions, needling, fillers, lasers, peels, full ablative laser resurfacing, etc, etc. But when I look in the mirror, the scarring that was formed in my teens and twenties is still basically staring out of the mirror back at me. Acne will go. And some scars can be "revised" but the skin will never be the same again after acne. It is a trauma. I have suffered psychologically. My family did not give a fuck. They said "pull yourself together". They gave me no emotional support. Sometimes I feel like disappearing and living like a hermit away from people. The most basic choice in life is either keep living or die. If you keep living and you have acne/scars, you have to try to find ways of coping with it. I live a solitary life. I only go out when I have to. I write. I have my pet cats. And use other things to try to relax. I see people around me getting on with their lives, smiling, having families, relationships, etc. And I look at myself and feel that life has passed me by. I am just waiting for death now. And no matter amount of mental trickery like psychotherapy, CBT, etc will alter all this. It is just phoney nonsense. Best wishes.
ReplyDeleteHi middle-aged Englishman. I'm a 39 year old female who has suffered with what you have described since I was 16 years old. I can say I truly understand how you feel. I feel really jaded and when I see those flawless faces pass by, with the sun shining on them and their friends or significant others. It makes me want to run in to a dark room and hide, feeling so inferior to them, not even knowing what kind of person they are. Although people say "Oh, I understand what you're going through, but you just need to get a grip on it and live your life" this really resonates with me as they could NEVER, EVER understand what it's like to feel like a freak in a traveling carnival act...always the subject of other's "curiosity". I'm not sure what I did in my previous life to deserve having a scarred face, but I know it must have been pretty bad to make my soul suffer from such a young age until death with an incurable condition. The irony of all of this is, when I was 15 years old, people would compliment me on my flawless skin and how beautiful I was and my mom would always tell them it was because she used to eat a lot of shrimp during her pregnancy with me. My, my, my, what I wouldn't give, to go back to that point in time...to pull my hair up in a messy ponytail, fresh faced (no makeup) walking the streets, head held high, the sun illuminating my flawless, gorgeous complexion. Those memories haunt me as i am now a hermit, suffering in my own hell...and I'm only 39....God help me...God help us all who suffer from acne scarring and forgive us for our past life mistakes so we can hopefully be reborn in to paradise in the next life as flawless souls....
DeletePS Following on from previous post : I would just like to be with people who have suffered this terrible condition - and find a girlfriend who has - because only we who have suffered it can truly understand each other. The others take their looks for granted because they have never suffered any facial trauma. I live in East Yorkshire in England. I would like to meet others but there are no social support networks. Everybody seems to be isolated. Is there any world that could be more horrific than this one today?
ReplyDeleteGuys please don't hate yourself. I have also suffered from acne when I was a teenager. It was quite painful, it is hard to describe the feeling. However, I started visiting plastic surgeons and sometimes dermatologist. It is amazing to see all the treatments that are available now to clear acne and to disappear ance scars. There are laser such as the Fraxel Laser that practically eliminate them with one treatment. I encouraged everyone that posted on this side to go and see a plastic surgeon. This doctors will help you find the treatment you need. You may end up spending a couple of thousand dollars, but a clear face does not have a price. I actually started seeing a plastic surgeon after I finished college. My only hope was to find a job that would allow me to make enough money to pay for this type of treatments. I am now almost 40 and my face looks better that when I was 20 years old. Please stop feeling sorry for yourself and schedule an appointment with a plastic surgeon or dermatologist. Do something for yourself besides complaining.
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ReplyDeleteHey men, just look on the british singer Seal. He got a terrible scar on his face but still got a very pretty wife and a very good career. Focus on different aspect of your life. Fight your way through the top of the society and it will overshadow your physical flaws.
ReplyDeleteThis seriously made me cry because I go through this as a FEMALE EVERYDAY I never look at mirrors I don't go outside I don't like to make eye contact with anyone shit literally tears me up inside when you don't even want to be around your friends cause you feel like your skin is not clear enough I went to dermatologist and didn't see a difference they gave me these injections and stupid doxycycline pills that made me nauseous I tried using natural products but there's no huge difference I hate this whole acne/acne scar stuff nobody understands how much we have to fight to stay strong how much we have to shake through the pressure of being judged daily I have a job interview coming up and I'm nervous just because of my condition I hate the feeling of not being taken seriously over something I can't control but just know your not alone and I totally understand everything your going through even my own family members put me down always suggesting what I should do for my face what I should use what dermatologist to go too I just hate it we will overcome this as long as we stay confident even tho we don't feel as confident stress only makes it worse it's a tough fight but don't give up yet !!
ReplyDeleteThis seriously made me cry because I go through this as a FEMALE EVERYDAY I never look at mirrors I don't go outside I don't like to make eye contact with anyone shit literally tears me up inside when you don't even want to be around your friends cause you feel like your skin is not clear enough I went to dermatologist and didn't see a difference they gave me these injections and stupid doxycycline pills that made me nauseous I tried using natural products but there's no huge difference I hate this whole acne/acne scar stuff nobody understands how much we have to fight to stay strong how much we have to shake through the pressure of being judged daily I have a job interview coming up and I'm nervous just because of my condition I hate the feeling of not being taken seriously over something I can't control but just know your not alone and I totally understand everything your going through even my own family members put me down always suggesting what I should do for my face what I should use what dermatologist to go too I just hate it we will overcome this as long as we stay confident even tho we don't feel as confident stress only makes it worse it's a tough fight but don't give up yet !!
ReplyDeletei am 50. i have had cystic acne since my teens. i have never had a clear complexion. i have several deep scars on my face also in my private areas. i was never teased as a child or teenager. i dont know why. but i know my first husband had a problem with my scars. now at 50 my husband is disgusted with my looks. i am now more self conscience than i have ever been. i am also going thru menopause so it is emotional tough.
ReplyDeletejust like most of you i am living in hell bec. of acne. i try my best to ignore it but its really affecting my life. i am 24 female and i had acne since i was 11 its been part of life ever since. i know that my life will never be normal again not ever.
ReplyDeletewhenever i looked at the mirror i see a monster a disfigured human. my scars and my acne its just so horrible. my ex was even honest enough to tell me that he left me bec of my horrible acne. and it hurts..but i cant blame him its the truth.
i always wanted to die. i think dying will be the happiest, atlast my suffering my will end after all life was never fun and never will be because of acne.. this is not even life i would prefer to call it hell.. worst bec. ur alive but ur already in hell bec. of all this suffering... i hate my life so much.. i cant think of other way to tell how i am feeling everyday but hell. this is hell. bye.
Yes, the human society is horrific I agree....It is based or should I say Biased on perfection. Even in our little "ugly" universes, we hope that there are some kind people who overlook the flaws and find beauty in us. truthfully, if there was some kind of social network, where we could find someone to share life with....Truth is we would want someone who was nice to look at.simple as that...because we are biased too...we have grown to hate ourselves because of what we look like and we look for beauty wherever we can find it...like in a flower or a painting or another human being's face. we have been programmed this way since man has lived on this planet. Yes, we may be ugly, yes we are lonely....but we are Beautiful Souls!
ReplyDeleteHaha sir i really wanna hit you hard. I have deep acne really fucking deep. Almost all over my face, my face is totally fucked up.
ReplyDeleteI am an eighteen years old guy who is going bald, who is skinny as a matchstick, who have wrongly alined teeth. I have to pretend always fucking serious i can't smile, i can't laugh, i can't fucking style my hair, i can't even dress good no matter what i am gonna wear it still not gonna suit me. Not even an ugly wants stand near by me. I am good in nothing, neither in sports, nor in studies. I barely manage to pass my exam no what for how long i wastudying. Nothing nothing not even in single fucking thing. Whatever i had tried to always went wrong. I dont drink like guys of my age do i don't smoke i do nothing but still mange to have every fucking problem with me. Now tell me you have more problems than me? there are still alot problems which i don't have enough time to tell. Now guess what i don't give a fuck about any of these. I always think when i am gonna walk out that fucking Lamborghini no one is gonna watch my fucking bald head, shit face, terrible teeth and horrible physic.
I have had my scars since 16 yo and i am now 54. I too hate mirrors but was told by a dermatologist that treatments today for scars are excellent. I just say please don't hate yourselves and do something about it and live a loving life.
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ReplyDeleteI know how you feel, I had great skin until Retin-A and glycolic acid destroyed it. Life is truly miserable and scar treatments are still primitive and exusively for the rich.
ReplyDeleteI used to work in a plastic surgery center and we recommended Dermalmd scar serum to all our patients. I used it myself for minor acne scars and was impressed with the effectiveness. It reduced redness and scar appearance after only a week of use. Now, years and two kids later, I use it for stretch marks across my abdomen from pregnancy. I can already see a difference. Even my husband could tell that my scars are fading. I've been using it for two weeks and can see that my stretch marks are less prominent and the redness has faded. Amazing stuff, I would highly recommend it.
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way. God Bless and I hope we are the most beautiful people in our next life! I always wanted a family, but my acne scars prevented this. I have no loving family and I am very lonely. I can't imagine what could be worse...
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