Happy Father's Day

I wish I was real honest with you dad. I always wanted to tell you how much I love you, but I am scared. It's tough on you all these years, being fired from your job since I was in primary school, and being a rag-and-bone man wasn't easy for you. Mom's gone and you had to stay tough for me. Dad I really really love you, but I find it so difficult to muster the courage to say these 3 words.

I wish life was easier for you, I really do. I am afraid of losing you, I don't want to end up all alone in the house, with no siblings or anyone. I am afraid that you will go to hell. I love you so much dad, I just wish you would believe in Jesus Christ, so that I can spend eternity with you in heaven, and there will be peace, joy and love forever, but...I can't promise the same for mom.

I am so sorry dad, if only...if only life was easier much for the 3 of us. I guess life isn't fair at all...

I can almost swear that life is so **** up right now. I seriously just want to end it all.